There comes a moment in life when everything changes irrevocably, dividing time into two distinct halves: before and after. ~John Hobbes
I vividly recall your last day. You lay in the hospital bed, surrounded by silence, save for the soft hum of machines and the occasional beep of monitors. The room, once vibrant with life, now felt like a solemn sanctuary. I spent countless nights by your side, the sofa under the window becoming my makeshift bed, as I held onto every moment we had left together.
Pillows from home cradled your head, while a blanket, lovingly crafted by our granddaughter, wrapped you in warmth. The room was filled with reminders of a life well-lived, even as we faced the reality of its end.
Our friend Kim sat beside me, a silent source of strength in the face of impending loss. She understood the weight of this day more than most, having walked a similar path herself. Together, we navigated the uncertain terrain of grief, finding solace in each other's company.
You were still awake then, though your words were barely audible over the rasping of your breath. I leaned in closer, straining to catch every whispered syllable, desperate to hold onto our final conversation. But the words escaped me, lost in the haze of your failing health.
As I gazed into your eyes, the color of the sea we both loved, I felt a surge of emotion wash over me. Your touch, once so familiar, now felt foreign against my skin. Yet, in that fleeting moment, as you kissed me goodbye, I knew that our love would endure long after you were gone.
I had been with you every step of the way, through the highs and lows of your battle with cancer. And now, as we stood on the precipice of goodbye, I couldn't help but wonder what the future held in store. Without you by my side, where would I go? What would my life look like without the steady presence of your love?
The answers eluded me, lost in the vast expanse of uncertainty that lay ahead. But one thing was certain: your love would guide me through the darkest of days, a beacon of hope in a world without you.
And as I stood there, grappling with the enormity of your absence, I realized that our love would transcend time and space, forever etched in the fabric of my being.
Wherever you are now, my love, know that you will always have a home in my heart. And though the road ahead may be uncertain, I will carry your love with me, a light to guide me through the darkest of nights.
~Debbie Fox
I remember that day like it was yesterday. How he was so happy to enjoy his cheeseburger, fries and I think a chocolate shake. And being the quite calm guy he was, he waited till all of us left except you and Missy to take his last breath.
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